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BACKGROUND AND OBJECTIVES Globally, older adults are undergoing spine surgery for degenerative spine disease at exponential rates. However, little is known about their experiences of living with and having surgery for this debilitating condition. This study investigated older adults' understanding and experiences of living with and having surgery for degenerative spine disease. RESEARCH DESIGN AND METHODS Qualitative methods, grounded theory, guided the study. Fourteen older adults (≥ 65yrs) were recruited for in-depth interviews at two time-points: T1 during hospitalization and T2, 1-3-months post-discharge. A total of 28 interviews were conducted. Consistent with grounded theory, purposive and theoretical sampling were used. Data analysis included open, axial, and selective coding. RESULTS A conceptual model was developed illustrating the process older adults with degenerative spine disease experience, trying to get their life back. Three key categories were identified (1) Losing Me (2) Fixing Me, and (3) Recovering Me. Losing Me was described as a prolonged process of losing functional independence and ability to socialize. Fixing Me consisted of preparing for surgery and recovery. Recovering Me involved monitoring progression and reclaiming their personhood. Conditions, including setbacks and delays, slowed their trajectory. Throughout, participants continually adjusted expectations. DISCUSSION AND IMPLICATIONS The conceptual model, based on real patient experiences, details how older adults living with and having surgery for degenerative spine disease engage in recovering who they were prior to the onset of symptoms. Our findings provide a framework for understanding a complex, protracted trajectory that involves transitions from health to illness working toward health again.